blue nights
The weekend was a blast. CNY dinner organized by the SSA was the best so far. Super awesome taiwanese steamboat. Fun gambling, and then I had another CNY dinner at a Profs, house the next night. That was super good too. Company , wine, fireworks and super good food again. Even got 2 dollar Ang Pow..hahaha...
My table

Blond Pals



Im on a health freak streak now man. Only thing killing me now are ciggerattes. Ive started eating salads... the most damn amazing thing ever. Eating light, going swimming and gymming... damn ...something must be wrong.

But lately the nights have been quiet and depressing, always just b4 I sleep too. I guess its a combo of all things. Major pain is school. Lost so much time due to all the I-20 crap im TRYING to bust my ass so that I can make up for all the lost time. Worrying about whether Im gonna make it. If not, am I bound to dissappoint everyone again. I mean yeah, its my like last chance...so im trying damn hard. But is it enough. Sometimes it gets to a point I really realllly want to just quit it all. Im getting sick of it really. Its like... Im damn old... well not DAMN old lah... but im feeling somewhat out of place. Feeling the need to settle down. Like seriously. But then, I cant settle down without that damn piece of paper. Who honestly gives a flying monkey's ass. Well, yeah,,, whoever hires you gives a monkeys butt, but then, I DONT.

People always speculate and point fingers. They say Ive been up there, cant live a different lifestyle. They say Ive got nothing to worry about whether I have that paper or not. But damn, they arent me. They can't tell how I feel. They can't see that I want to live my own life, regardless of what money I earn, or what my job skills entail. Hell, I wouldnt mind living in maine being a fisherman. In this world of technological advances, we've all forgotten how to live. We get by in our daily lives with our fast fuel efficient cars, our postage sized handphones, our blazing internet which allows us to download and rip off the music industry, our 1 million channel cable tv which allows us to never miss a show.
When do people of our generation take the time to sit by the lake. Sit by the ocean, sit in the forest, sit around a campfire, sit at a coffee place just talking. Yah, they go to starbucks and coffee bean and what not, but why? Coz its the IN thing... coz everyone is there. They wanna be seen. They wanna be heard. They wanna be known by everyone.
Why do we drink, smoke, dye our hair blonde. I dunno. Peer pressure? Nah. Smokings not cool anymore. Drinking? Well ... last time it was beer's and hard liquors... Now its Wine and Martini's . Its always changing.

Maybe that's why I love the movie The Beach. You get away from it all. You spend your time with people you know well. Its a closed knit community. Everyones the same, no one is richer nor poorer. No Taxes, No Bills, No Internet, No Cell Phones, No Cars, No Technology.

But then, fuck. Who doesnt want to see flying cars, and spring break trips to mars. Cell phones that dial on thought, and that are implanted. Teleportation. Laser Guns, Flying shoes, Food Pills, Holographic TV's, Virtual Sex, TechnoPunkRockHardcoreClassical Music. On Thought TV, Solar Engery Power, Greener Grass, Bigger Tomatoes, Smellier Durians, Marble Sized CD's. Cure for AIDS, Cure for cancer. Peace to mankind and goodwill to all men.

And through all that. We forget things. Loved ones, Friends, Nature ( And animals :PPP)




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